2012 I met someone in Facebook. He turned from a stranger to a friend, from a simple friend to my best friend and in the end to my lover. I was so happy, he made me happy. He just needed to be around I smiled like a idiot.
We both had roleplayer accounts, means not with our real names. So I asked him after his name and his name was Leo.
His full real name was ‘Leo Kent Carter’ sure the first moment I didn’t thought about if he really tells me his real name. Who knows what kind names it gives in America…
After I knew his name we got through good and bad times. Some moments was really hard but I was always there for him and he started to trust me. Open himself more up to me. After a while I wanted to know how he looks in real. He asked me “Is that so important to know how I look in real? I looking handsome.” I was like “What’s wrong showing someon his real face?!” I didn’t understand what was his problem. In this moment told my instinct that something is wrong there. But I stopped to bother him with this question.
8th May 2013 we became a couple. He was always online, talked to each other til 12 hours. The only problem was sometimes the timezone I was 7 hours ahead over here in germany. But it wasn’t a big problem for us we stayed in contact. Days, weeks, months passed by since I asked him after a pic of him. I asked him again but this time I stayed stubborn and he sent me a pic and said that’s him. I was kinda shock, because the guy on the pic was looking really handsome.
Our relationship became to something serious and I started to tell my friends and family about Leo. The most of my friends of me asked me if I’m sure that he don’t faked the pic and anything. I said them, no I believe and trust him.
Then he stayed offline for weeks and months without leaving a reason. I knew he was still on the college and thought he is busy with his exams.
That is what he told me after he returned. 27th Oct 2013 was my 21st birthday and he spent the day online to being there. The words he wrote on my wall was so touching and meaningful.I believed every word what he wrote, that he want spent the rest of his life with me.
On 9th Nov 2013 he wrote me in my inbvox he has to leave facebook but can’t tell me the reason. He won’t me to get into his problems. He deactivate his account with the words he will always love me.
I didn’t understand what the hell has happened. Facebook was the only way how I could reach him and then from one moment on the other moment he was gone. Believe me on that day felt everything like the world would go under. 4-5 days later he returned with the words. “Dammit, I can’t deactivate my account over the phone.”
I was so pissed off in that moment and happy at the same but the anger was bigger. Then came the day when he just broke up with me. He broke up while still loving me.
21st Nov 2013 on his birthday he tried to get close to me again. I knew he still had feelings for me. Always if I tried to make him realize he blocked and rejected me.
After a while I had enough of this shit and the way he was acting. Fighting against the feelings he still had for me. So I was thinking to leave facebook. But he got pissed off but finding out about it. Tried to hold me back. I asked myself what does he want of me?! I still had feelings for him but it looked like he don’t care about it.
2014 started and the last day I had contact with him was on 8th Jan 2014. Then he stayed offline and appeared back again around March. Stayed for 2-3 weeks then stayed again offline. Arounf June - July he returned again and we got again closer to each other, spending hours together again. Made jokes and laughed about random shit.
He uploaded a video where he tagged me and told me it’s him playing a cover version of “Oceans between us by The Getaway.” It was the same guy like on the photo. There I didn’t had no reasons to believe he faking something.
Now we having 2th Sep 2014, he wasn’t online since a month now. He told me that he got a good job now and it will be the reason why will not being that much online in facebook.
Well, in the meanwhile I watched the TV show Catfish. And yeah, so came up the bad thoughts about if he is real or fake. Is he Leo Kent Carter or was that not his real name. Was he a guy or maybe a girl. So I simple did a image search in google some days ago. And what I found there felt like someone punched me in my stomach.
The pic he sent me and told me that’s him actually belongs to someone named Thomas Davenport. A male model from Austraila. This Thomas has even a Facebook account. And it seems he is even in a relationship with someone. I couldn’t believe what I saw. The tears came up my eyes andthis wasn’t enough. I got on Youtube and searched after Covers of ‘Oceans between us by The Getaway’ and guess what I found there… The same video what he uploaded in FB. The pain I felt in this moment was deep and hurtful.
I tursted him and that blind. He was my best friend and the one I loved. I told him everything, he knows everything about me. And I… I stand there where I was 2 years ago.. I know nothing. I left him a msg… I want that he explain me why he did this to me. Why he couldn’t be honest with me? I even wrote this Thomas Davenport on facebook, but til now I got no answer and it don’t seem that he would even help me.
The point is I fell for him because of his personality and not because the way he looks. All I want now is the turth. Because I deserve the truth after all. I’m afraid that he gonna be a coward and just deactivate his account than to answer me.
It would bother me forever. Because he means much to me. I ask me what’s hard to being honest? To show your real face? I’m not such kind of person who judges someone for the way he/she is looking. God look at me I’m not that beautiful as well…
Now means waiting til he ever get back online in facebook…